Speak Clear

Speaking clearly is not something that most people have problems with. In fact it is not a problem that I have had to deal with in my life until recently. Many people have told me in my lifetime that my mouth is a running motor.
They have also commented that if I could fuel my energy somehow from the negative to the positive that I might have an outside chance of doing something usefull with it. With all due respect to those people, I quickly dropped their opinions like a hot sack of coal. For me, being able to speak my mind was my privelage. I didn't want someone to come and take that gift away from me. The gift to chatter.

Recently though through conversations with my girlfriend (her name is Pearl), she has quickly pointed out, without even pointing, that I am not good at speaking clearly. I get my descriptions mixed up, emotions all flustered and when I am trying to conceive a message to her about how I feel, it usually ends up with me muttering the words 'I'm sorry'. It is killing me inside when I can't get the right words to come out of my mouth to match the emotions that I feel. This idea or notion of speaking clearly though is something I know that needs to be learned and understood.
And as I work through those hard learned lessons from my failures, I realize that the details of speaking are important. That its not just the act of me speaking about how I feel is important, it is the act of detailed speaking that is of greater importance. And now it makes my whole situation with speaking clearly even more difficult. I can't just generalize or sterotype or use bad metaphors to explain myself. I need details.

Can't life go on without details? I have come to a hard conclusion of 'no it can't'. Details need to be there. And when the act of speaking comes into play for me, I need to realize that details can't be missing from the conversation. A hard place for someone to be, especially when trying to learn how to speak clear.